Yes lets hope all three transport me again where I can recharge, re-figure, and re-invent another chapter of life's meandering. When I started this blogging through persuasion from friend Claire and Steve, never thought it would bring me a sense or state of cathartic wellbeing but it has, so thank you friends for giving me a push.
I went on Friday to a place I have never been, my friend Ellen whom although we have know one another for maybe 25 years, only actually met about 4 years ago. We had spoken on the telephone for years through our places of work, mine at Woodhouse Day hospital, her for our team Secretary.
Ellen has a very distinctive accent, a beautiful Irish lilt, and sheer chance we were within feet of one another eyeing up our teams new premises, be it I had worked there for 20 odd years. I heard this voice and knew this was Ellen whom I had conversed with over the years.....Instant friendship evolved from that day.
Back to my Friday outing, she rang and said girl get your walking shoes on, I am taking a day off work and getting you out, at first felt a bit nervous, not sure why ?
Was it my Cov19 isolation that had ended 4 days previous, but still had not ventured out, or was it like a betrayal to Viv that I was going out and she never was again, I really don't know.
But I was so glad I went, Ellen took me to a beautiful Memorial site in Sherwood, it was spectacular the views and tranquility of this place blew me away. Its rolling fields overlooking Nottingham, the peace and the space was just what I needed.
We then proceeded to Cromford Mills in Derbyshire near Matlock, well known Matlock for Bikers so if you know any Bikers bank holidays is where they all descend there in their hundreds.
Cromford has very old links to the quarries and mills, so we then walked nearly 20,000 steps along the beautiful canal that connected to the mills that were waterfall powered, and the train tracks. Both run side by side which made it so interesting, to stop off at old waterside and railway side buildings which had been restored into little cafe's.
We walked talked and walked and talked more, and as we walked again the tranquility just melted my pain of Viv. We talked about her me telling Ellen about little stories and she listening, and it was so what I needed to help me come to terms with all this sadness inside of me.
We even managed to dig up some gorgeous flowers that grow wild, not sure what they are Ellen knew as they grow all over Donegal, I told Ellen about how I had coerced Steve on our walks to try and pinch me some water Iris's, I know he was mortified but bless he tried but the ground was to hard, even though I had put my trow in my back pack just in case we went that way.......Just in case I knew which way I would be heading. LAUGH
Well we managed to get some roots and put them in my pack so as soon as we got back I have put the roots in jugs of water hoping they will sprout,,,,,,,Viv you would know what to do she is the green finger goddess.
Well we walked and treated our selves to a lovely scone big as a football, crisps and tea, then on our way back at another pit stop there was Chocolate Magnums my very favourite....Pudding on a stick yum yum.
It was the perfect day sunny and a smiley day the first in such a long time and will treasure the kindness of a friend stepping in when needing to move to my next stage of grief or acceptance but in a nice way, THANKYOU ELLEN.
Not sure what today brings I know its dinner at Steves tonight that's good, I did have a delivery from Tesco's last night at 8.30, I had got a slot 2 week ago because wasn't sure if I would become poorly with the virus, also my friend from Turkey was coming, alas though she has delayed her trip nearer the end of the year.
Anyway nice girl delivered my purchases and was very pleasant, try to scam the crates they were in but didn't manage it. Steve was impressed cus he said he had never done it , I hadn't so not a virgin in that department now.
Sylvia visited today, she has been helping her brother move near here from up North, so I have sorted curtains and cushions out of my stash of them in my shed. Do have a fetish about cushions and curtains, so Sylv knew I could come up with some, his curtains that he had bought were not the right size but think he will be ok now.
Told Sylvia to make sure he comes out on our little soiree on Fridays that may help him to settle in if nothing else. May drop him a little card welcoming him back to Loughborough, as he moved up North after selling up and buying a pub, but his partner died last year so they had no children, hence the move back to Loughborough, to be nearer his family and children from a previous marriage.
Looking forward to Claire coming for company that has been lacking of late. The two weeks of not going out and in complete isolation apart from two short drop off with food was managed quite well and has surprised I think my friends especially with dealing with Viv's death and grief.
I think they were all worried about me, and with my daughter visiting and staying they all must have been worried to see how I would cope, as I have always preached, share Joy, happiness, sadness, and fears, as this people does help, and to be able to have a shoulder to lean on can be the best, as I hope in all my heart I have been there to all my family and friends.
I have just sat outside eating my lunch dish of chopped strawberries, melon, prunes and yoghurt, two salted rice cakes with cheese spread and a cuppa. Well as I sat there a butterfly just hovered and settled near and just kept fluttering her wings, Rachel also the other day had her butterfly visit. Well our Viv loved butterflies, she had them all over the house and hearts.
WELL HELLO VIV YOU COME TO CHECK UP ON ME MY SWEETHEART... I'M DOING OK YOU BUGGER
FLUTTER ALL YOU LIKE AND DANCE AROUND ME FOREVER
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