Just another day,is it ...Who knows, nobody knows.

Up early with the Lark can't really say I have seen a Lark but 3.30 am is Lark time...there are strange programs on TV in these early hours Urban  or documentaries which I kinda enjoy, gosh an actor just said if your brave enough to come here your brave enough to beat it, perhaps this blog is saying that to me I wonder.......Goggle box has now appeared on the screen. My friends and I often compare the people appearing to people we know, funnily enough no matter what age they are I see myself in all of them but a chameleon is so versatile. and sometimes you have to be to exist in this funny world today.

Do I make another cuppa or hit the sack again, and wait for the forecast of sunshine think I will cus just showed the clips from In the line of duty on Goggle box, and it’s so funny the comments have made me laugh and I will be wide awake till day light if I watch more, so on that I'm off to bed one more time.

Its Thursday, sunny which makes me smile and quite hopeful for another

day so let’s plan, I could do some painting but always like a motivating person around to spur me on as this makes it fun, wish I could be a person who just tackles stuff like Viv and Claire they put me to shame, I am more of a person who likes to think about how nice this or that would look but can leave it to another day. Well we will be having a few of them now so no excuse.  Crack on then mow the lawn- tick, weed the gravel- tick plant some plants- tick, now prepare some chicken, stuff with spinach and feta cheese

wrap and put a squeeze of lemon in parcel always
helps to steam it, well I think so all of them achieved. Now change dirty clothes put on cutoff jeans always love cut offs makes me feel summer is around the corner tie my hair in a fifties looking scarf band and off I go on the walk.

The walk wasn't as long today walked to Liddell’s loaded my silver back pack a real good purchase from the Al-Hop shop in Altea Spain, I fell in love with it and it went with me on my once in a life time trip to Thailand, hopefully will be my number one item to pack again on my trips that's if luck and life allows me too. Viv and I were

planning so much it was so nice to be able to plan once again trips with someone, It’s been so many years since this was possible as although eternally grateful to my couple friends whom I love dearly I was always a 2 + 1 person and I did so want to be a two er again, I know that's not a word Two er but I like it cus you'r not a couple.  Viv and I became widows within in a few months and quickly became known as my daughter Rebekah christened us the Twidows like twins, and you know we loved it, we were there for one another not just now but for years, she is my soul sister, a friend and most of all I love her like a moon beam.  When her treatment’s over we will do all the things we have planned as I told her we are not giving up on life or living not on my watch.

It’s the Clapping the NHS here tonight at 8pm, I’ve worked for them for nearly 30 yrs every time I come back in the house alone and have a bit of a weep, not just because I work in this absolutely brilliant old girls institution that I am immensely proud to be a part of but because on two occasions they’ve saved me from cancer and saved my life, so my debt is huge and I try never to forget it. We’ve got a Watsapp group for our street which is pretty cool we started it because of the Corona virus cos we can’t go out there are some really good people who have lived here for years, nobody seems to leave our road so that's says something, oh and by the way Steve our good
friend and Viv are honoree Duncan wayers that's the name of our street and cus we like them. I was one of the first 40 year ago to move here and don't regret it for one moment. I remember one evening when Rebekah was newborn, taking her down stairs to feed and saw all these baby rabbits and Hares leaping around on the newly seeded lawn in the moon light  there was still a corn field right next to our newly built house. It was a sight I will never forget till the day I die it was special it was magical.

Not sure what’s going to be showing on the tele tonight, I tend to watch homes in the sun, then Life in the sun on catch up  the Chateaux  to follow, I dream about a place of my own somewhere sunny not too hot I love the Mediterranean life wished I could have had a place but alas not possible now, but who knows a bingo win which we are playing live in the street may help to buy a brick lol. Oh note to ones self, after drinking Sicilian lemon Gin & tonic lock the back door forgot last night. So off to make another cuppa before I tune into the daily update on this whole mess, will most likely be back later to carry on with this new blogging thing to wile away the hours here and thinking far too much about things Ive done, things I should have done and things I should not have, but again do I regret no not really just sometimes wish things could have been different for this girl from a council estate that was ideal to grow up knowing everyone and all being the same, but my dad knew me so well always said Yvonne you will always have champagne taste but only beer money, never met the Mr that was going to have the ambitions to take a leap of faith with me, so its my own fault had the two husbands but never had my enthusiasm of he who dares...Now for the cuppa.........

Had my dinner so just be waiting to do the clapping again, but also I think today is Viv's Pete anniversary of his death, I couldn't be there for the funeral I was away I sent a small contribution of my own from the shores of Spain, not that far away from where they spent the winter. Apparently received it when they were all together it was small but it was heart felt from me. Just been out to do the clapping felt good and good for bonding with the neighbors. Will be now preparing my Gin & Tonic which is a nice start to the evening but oh so much better with friends and company also on a lovely warm summer evening nothing better, Want to try and get up early tomorrow, being quite naughty tend to think bugger this is like ground hog day and turn over so don't want to get into that habit, my usual Friday is meet with the girls in the day town shopping then later for early doors meal then Ginnnnnnns, ooh miss it so much but tend to be missing quite a bit of late, mainly company chatting and contact being a touchy feely person does not bode well but we all have to be in it together so stop this sulking.                                                                                                                   

My little personnel tribute to Pete xxxx